Afraid

I have not been feeling so good about myself lately. I don't know why but I've been feeling so afraid, afraid of losing you. My brain has been fucking my mind with scenarios that I know isn't likely to happen. Never have I valued my self-worth this much. Nani, you're the best thing that is happening right now in my life, it kills me if I ever lose you. I hate myself for not talking more. I don't know why but I feel like I can't seem to talk on whatsapp alot. It's like a barrier that is preventing me to communicate with you. If communication is key in a relationship, I probably gonna have alot of problems in that area. I hope the way I talk in real life is good enough. I hope I don't bore you with my one liner messages. I need to change, I need to talk more.